Sweat and Tears

I've always heard people say that if you do the same thing you will never get different results. And I've finally gotten to the point in my life where I have had to listen to it, and take it in.

I've prayed and prayed and asked God for things. I know God wants to bless us. He gave his son just so we could live and be free, why wouldn't he want to give us other things? But it's kind of like us blessing our children. If we just give them what they want and they don't always have to work for it, like being rewarded, why would they want to do good things to make us proud? God wants the same from us, as we are His children.

So instead of praying and asking God "Please give me the perfect body" or "please give us more money" or "Please fix my marriage", ask and act. Ask God, spill your heart to God but also take it on yourself to act on it as well.

I have taken this on myself lately. Instead of complaining about how I hate my body and I wish this and I wish that, I have decided to start exercising daily. It isn't always fun, but I should be taking care of the body God gave me, anyway. And after the first week of being sore, I started taking this more seriously and started watching what I was eating.

Don't just ask God for a job, search and search hard. Tell God what your heart is.

Don't just ask God for your marriage to get better, but take steps to being kind to your spouse. Show them and God how much you love them.

Don't just ask God for healthy body and family, but eat healthy.

The more you show God how passionate and serious you are about what you want, God would gladly give it to you. Especially if it is even more encouraging for His kingdom.

Desperation

I'm so frustrated with life right now. It seems like we were finally seeing the light at the end and now we've been thrown back down the flight of stairs again. We took a financial class about a month ago and we were so thrilled that with our tax return we were able to put away money for our baby step one and work on our debt snowball. Well, that didn't last long.

I can't figure out why, but we're getting behind on things again! We had to use some of our "emergency fund" just to make our mortgage payment. It killed me to have to do that! We thought we would sell my car, get a "beater" car and use the money for knocking down our debt. Well, we haven't gotten one single inquire about it! I've been told our home is the talk of the office, it's getting so many calls for showings. Then why doesn't any one put an offer in! No one has even given us any negativity on it, so I can't fix what they might not like! And of course the struggle for a job and getting income that way is still frustrating.

I don't know how many times I can take crying to God for help in this situation. It feels like it's just becoming over bearing. I hate living like this. I want to get into a place of financial peace and bless others! I don't want to worry about if we can pay all the bills this month or if we have enough for milk or food. I don't want my children to have to have state funded health insurance because we're so poor!

Oh, and I forgot to add about stupid car inspections! It's a 2007, it shouldn't need to get inspected! Grr! Why does the government think we have all this money to shell out?

GOD, IF YOU'RE LISTENING, PLEASE HELP GET US OUT OF HERE! I'm desperate.